Sunday, March 30, 2008

should I fight?

when I follow my heart,
I get heart ache
when I follow my head,
I bet a head ache

should I fight or let it go
I should fight but what good would it do
the prize is no longer available to me
it is gone, out of my reach

this will pass, I know it will
just another stress I put on myself
I cant wait to get out of here
nearer to what I want, and need

I still believe in it,
Ive never given up
Ill never give up
till the prize is totally gone

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

what is a cleveland brown?

A Bengal is a tiger
And a fast plane is a Jet.
A Cowboy comes from Texas
And a Raider's tough I'll bet.

A Viking's from the frigid north.
Seahawks live near the sea.
All are names of football teams,
Just like they ought to be.

But there's one name that makes no sense
It causes me to frown
Can anyone enlighten me?
Just what's a Cleveland Brown?!

I don't know if it is true,
But I think I've heard a theory;
That Cleveland named its team
After the color of Lake Erie.

Brown does not describe
A big and strong athletic man.
It's what's inside the diaper
Of a baby Steeler's fan.

The guy who named this football team
Must be the Cleveland clown
Who else would think to call
A football warrior a Brown!!

If I'd been born in Cleveland
And there my life was spent,
I'd find another team to cheer
From pure embarrassment.

I myself, have always loved
The Steelers Black and Gold.
I did when I was very young,
And I will when I am old.

But why's this name an adjective
When it should be a noun?
Can anybody tell me
What the heck is a Cleveland Brown?!

Sunday, March 23, 2008

confusion

Im confused as to what I want from life. I know I want to be a youth pastor and to serve God but is that my real calling? I see so many people around me more passionate than me about it. why am I not as passionate as them?

I miss CLC, I miss santa cruz, I miss california, I miss my freinds, I miss the ocean, I miss sunshine, I miss in-n-out burger. I want to come home, I want to come home, santa cruz is my home.

I dont know what I want to do next semester. I dont think I want it to be in minnesota. I love North Central, but I dont think im coming back. I dont regret coming here for a second, but my life is in california. God has given me the best church ever, the best freinds and the best set of pastor ever. I have a summer to pray about it. please pray with me for God to show me his will for my life.

Friday, March 21, 2008

I got nothing but a thank you

I want to blog, I want to write something thoughtful, meaningful, yet I have nothing. Its Easter in two days, I'm taking this time to reflect on what Jesus did for me, for us. So I encourage everyone to think about what Jesus did for us. he paid the ultimate price so that we can gain the ultimate gift. I thank Jesus for what he did, his pain, suffering, embarrassment, and ultimately his death. I challenge everyone to think about that this sunday, I know I will.

Saturday, March 15, 2008

It all starts in 16 days

so with baseball season just over two weeks away I wanted to post what I think the standing will look like to me. I will start with the weaker league known as the american league.

al east
Red Sox 94-68
Blue Jays 91-71
Yankees 85-77
Rays 71-91
Orioles 65-97

al central
Tigers 101-61
Indians 95-67
White Sox 81-81
Twins 78-84
Royals 72-90

al west
Mariners 92-70
Angels 90-72
Athletics 79-83
Rangers 77-85

nl east
Mets 91-71
Phillies 88-74
Braves 87-75
Nationals 72-90
Marlins 69-93

nl central
Cubbies 88-74
Brewers 85-77
Reds 82-80
Astros 80-82
Pirates 70-92

nl west
Dodgers 93-69
Rockies 87-73
Diamondbacks 81-81
Padres 76-86
Giants 55-108

I know what your all thinking of course he puts the dodgers in first... and yes your right but they have the most balanced team in the west. but we will see how it all happens. and I do pick the dodgers every year as a fan I have too.

Saturday, March 8, 2008

sacred pathways

Intellectual 17
Contemplative 26
Enthusiast 26
Caregiver 22
Activist 15
Ascetic 18
Traditionalist 20
Sensate 12
Naturalist 19


Summary of spiritual temperaments:
Intellectual - Loving God with the Mind:
These Christians live in the world of concepts. They may feel closest to God when they first understand something new about Him.

Contemplative - Loving God through Adoration:
These Christians seek to love God with the purest, deepest, and brightest love imaginable. They want nothing more than some privacy and quiet to gaze upon the face of their heavenly Lover and give all of themselves to God.

Enthusiast - Loving God with Mystery & Celebration:
Excitement and mystery in worship is the spiritual lifeblood of enthusiasts. They are inspired by joyful celebration; cheerleaders for God and the Christian life. They don't want to just know concepts, but to experience them, to feel them, and to be moved by them. They like to let go and experience God on the precipice of excitement and awe.

Caregiver - Loving God by Loving Others:
Caregivers serve God by serving others. They often claim to see Christ in the poor and needy, and their faith is built up by interacting with other people. Caring for others recharges a caregiver's batteries.

Activist - Loving God Through Confrontation:
These Christians define worship as standing against evil and calling sinners to repentance. They are energized more by interaction with others, even in conflict, than by being alone or in small groups. Activists are spiritually nourished through the battle.

Ascetic - Loving God in Solitude and Simplicity:
Ascetics want nothing more than to be left alone in prayer. Let there be nothing to distract them--no pictures, no loud music--and leave them alone to pray in silence and simplicity.

Traditionalist - Loving God Through Ritual and Symbol:
Traditionalists are fed by what are often termed the historic dimensions of faith: rituals, symbols, sacraments, and sacrifice. They tend to have a disciplined life of faith and have a need for ritual and structure.

Sensate - Loving God with the Senses:
Sensate Christians want to be lost in the awe, beauty, and splendor of God. They are drawn particularly to the liturgical, the majestic, the grand. They want to be filled with sights, sounds, and smells that overwhelm them. The five senses are God's most effective inroad to their hearts.

Naturalist - Loving God Out of Doors:
The naturalist seeks to leave the formal architecture and the padded pews to enter an entirely new "cathedral", a place that God himself has built: the out-of-doors.

Friday, March 7, 2008

twitter

so im officially on twitter now... dont know how to use it so if you know how to find me. cause I dont know how to use it. my user name on it is dodge16_12 so if you know how to use it tell me or something...

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

im mad

mad that this happens in this world... http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,334790,00.html

here is a kid with everything in the world to live for and because he is black and not in a gang gets killed. why? his father made him a deal, if he makes it out of high school he can do anything he wants. he wanted to be a sports agent. even worse him mother was in Iraq fighting for our safety from terrorist. gosh..... this is the whole reason I want to be in ministry. I want to reach these kids... I want to show them God's love. I cant even type the words of what I am feeling right now. im frustrated. this should have never happened. I pray for his family and friends. and I also pray for the people that did this to jamiel, they need to be cought and send to prison for a long long time.

Monday, March 3, 2008

gossip

when will we ever learn?

why do we as christians hurt each other with gossiping?

can we not learn that we are on the same side with the same goals?

I hate gossiping, its ridiculous and immature. it has no place in church at all. we should be building each other up not tearing each other down. were called to raise above the world, not be part of it.

tonight some gossip was told to me, my first reaction was to ask the person who was being gossiped about if it was true... of course it was not. my next action was to let the gossiper know that it wasnt ok to talk about that person behind there back and instead should have talked to that person instead of me about it. Im not trying to be high and mighty a great christian here but seriously this is not what God wants for us as christians.

remember this romans 14:4

Who are you to judge someone else's servant? To his own master he stands or falls. And he will stand, for the Lord is able to make him stand.