update

hey giants fans here is a reason to like the dodgers... peter O'malley saved your pathetic excuss for a team in 1992... dont beleve me look here is the story...

http://query.nytimes.com/gst/fullpage.html?res=9E0CE1D6153DF93BA3575BC0A964958260

and your welcome...

anyways live here is good... just really busy with homework and stuff like that. I really love minnesota and rejoice that I get to stay here. things are stirring within me and I cant wait for it to explode. how is everyone doing?

oh and Bobby M. ive been playing guitar hero like crazy when I get back to cali im taking you down. yeah Im good at it now so booya.

God is faithfull

Tonight it happened! I got my loan, I can stay at school. Praise God, he is faithfull. I am so blessed, I love God so much... more on this later.

desperation time

I am so desperate for a move of God to happen with me. I have no way to pay for college now. no loan company will give me a loan and there is no way I can stay here if I dont have a loan or the money in place. I have untill monday to get this straightened out. Guys once again I need your prayers, even more though this time. I dont know what God is doing here but I know he is doing something. ive been praying non stop for him to somehow provide for me. Im believing for a miracle and pray that it come in the next four days. so please join in with me to pray. im desperate for this to happen.

I need help

hey all even if you dont know me or you know me quite well I need help. something went bad with my loan for NCU and now I dont know if I am going to be able to stay here. please I ask of you to just pray for this situation and for God to provide somehow... all I am asking for is your prayer. please. I am doing some hard core praying right now that somehow, somewhere God will provide for me... I need about 8700 dollars or Im out of here. please just say a quick prayer thats all I need.

"God I know you will provide for me, I know that I am called to NCU and I know you have exciting things for me over here. Lord I know that that no amount is to much for you and I ask that somehow someway the money is provided. If not I know you have something else way better in store for me. amen"

thanks in advance for your prayers.

offense or defense

how awesome is this scripture... 2 Samuel 23:20 Benaiah son of Jehoiada was a valiant fighter from Kabzeel, who performed great exploits. He struck down two of Moab's best men. He also chased a lion down into a pit on a snowy day and killed it.

what did it just say? he chased a lion down into a pit and killed it... wow talk about having courage or just being really stupid. Earl Creps was in our chapel today and he talked about this passage, it was amazing just like he is. he talked about your defining day, about how when it comes to life sometimes we all have a day where we can run away from the lion or chase it. it was inspiring.

he also talked about us as christians are playing defense against each other while were on offense. and we need to play offense all the time against the enemy. I am really encouraged with todays message, I need to have the courage to chase my lion and kill it. just a thought

update on life

have you ever had an empty feeling and you feel like nothing can help you? Ive been feeling that way for a while now... pretty much since I got here. I have no friends, and more importantly no mentor. I lost all of that when I came here. I have noone I can sit down to a great cup of coffee with and talk to face to face and spill my guts. so much is happening inside of me and I have noone to talk to about it.

was this a mistake?

Is all this making me a stronger person?

God is changing me. I just wish I had a spiritual friend to go to.

the chapel service today was about freedom yet I dont feel free. I feel im in bondage. I miss california, my freinds, my church, my car and so on... I just dont know what to do... I cant wait till summer when im back home and I can think everything through and get positive feedback. oh what I wouldnt give for a coffee cat meeting with one of my pastors.

I guess I may just be homesick... I dont know what I am anymore.