what a week

this week has been frustrating, fun, sad and exciting.

tuesday- found out my mentor/youth pastor is leaving

wednesday- flippin busy as work

thursday- thanksgiving- worked and drove

friday- shopping

saturday- drive home to have car die many times

sunday- church was sooo sad, car died again

monday- car died again*

tuesday- car died again baught new battery, didnt work, couldnt return it, smoke appears out of the tail pipe

wednesday- car is still dead and smoke is way worse, got new phone yay.

*funny story: car died when I got off of work monday. my awesome old roommate mack came and jumped my car. as we are talking and letting the battery run somehow the door locks. now my keys are locked in the car, remember the car is still running. my spare keys are lost, I dont know where they are. so mack takes me to my house to look for em and they are nowhere to be found. luckily my hippy roommate has a wire coat hanger, so we take that and open my car door. I dont like cars.

all this bad stuff happens yet my only thought that stays with me is that God is in controll. Im learning to trust him more and more everyday. Im falling more in love with him every minute of the day. hes amazing, crap is happening to me yet I still know hes in controll. kyle leaving sucks but I know its God's will and Im so excited for him. my car can be fixed, its expensive yet who cares. I have amazing friends who are willing to help. whatever, I LOVE GOD AND HE LOVES ME.

thankful

In church today the question was asked "what are you thankful for?" I started thinking what am I thankful for. here is my list

second, third, fourth and so on chances with God
laughter
life
God/Jesus
friends
air
running water
my job, car, phone, house
family
my calling
being able to woship God freely
safety
prayer
music
church
pastors
seasons of the year
sports
talking
blogging
internet
walking
sight
hearing
health
love
spiritual leaders
the Bible
books
coffee
youth
memories
my future and my past

as you can see im thankful for the little things and the big things. pretty much this post is to show that God is great. please let me know what you are thankful for.

free agency

free agent time! players can sign anywhere now. here is what I think my dodgers will do.

c Russel Martin
1b James Loney
2b Jeff Kent
3b Alex Rodriguez
ss Rafael Furcal
lf Andre Ethier
cf Juan Pierre
rf Matt Kemp

sp Chad Billingsly
sp Brad Penny
sp Derek Lowe
sp Jason Schmidt
sp Randy Wolf or Estaban Loiaza

rp Yhency Brazabon
rp Johnathan Mealon
rp Joe Biemel
rp Scott Proctor
rp Johnathan Broxton
rp Takashi Saito

bench players
Mark Sweeney
Andy Laroche
Tony Abrea
Jason Repko
Delmon Young

saying good bye to:
Nomar Garciaparra
Rudy Seanez
Mark Hendrickson

division winner here maybe just maybe the 2008 world series champions!

why

why God, why do I have no friends. I mean I have freinds but no real friends that know me on a lever more than me. I have a nobody that I can talk to about my life. my freinds dont know me, they dont know the real me.

I had a best freind but you took her from me. youve hurt me and youve hurt her too. if you really cared about me or her then why are you putting us through this. Lord take the pain from her and give it to me. I dont want her hurting anymore. wont you atleast listen to me, please.

just give me my best friend back or give me some freinds... you know my choice...

wow

flip one good thing about this week... thats about it for me

my life on sunday... wake up at 6 still extremely tired and couldnt sleep, iPod froze and still doesnt work, and or course costco's policy is 90 days and its been 92 days. I rented a movie and lost it so I didnt get to watch it. and I burnt my thumb pretty badly and it really hurts.

that pretty much sums up my life as of right now... sucks and is broken... where is God? Im reaching out to him and hes not reaching back... he wants me to reach out to him and I get nothing... I feel like im in santa cruz and hes in ethiopia... way to be there for me...